It’s been quite awhile and I didn’t mean to be away this long but I’ve been quite a busy girl. Thankfully my absence wasn’t due to any sort of illness… yay for being healthy!
In the past few months through my unemployment, I’ve just been searching for that thing that would make me happy and also make me financially secure. I think this concept has been even tougher for me because I spent a large chunk of my adult years pursuing a teaching degree, only to discover I don’t quite enjoy teaching as much as I thought I would. In addition I live in New York one of the most expensive places in the US to live, so even if I continued teaching, would I really have financial freedom?
I’m so thankful for everything that’s lead me to where I am right now. In 2015, I was stressed out to the max, miserable, and at a level of depression I never thought I could even get to. So when I lost my job, everything in my heart and soul had no desire to even search for a new one. I decided I needed a break. The break has lasted quite a bit longer than I expected and yes I’m hurting financially but I’m happier than I was when I was making money. Fortunately for me, I’ve picked myself up out of my depression, and that happened only because I started this weight loss journey and this blog. This journey to lose weight was not just about losing weight but it was a step towards becoming a better version of myself and becoming happier and more content with my life.
With that said, eight months later, I’ve finally made a decision. I am going to go back to teaching part-time or full-time with reasonable hours. Previously I worked at a chain daycare that was open from 7-6:30, therefore my hours would typically end up being 9:30-6:30. Add two hours of traveling to and from on top of that and you get a day looks like this: wake up, shower/get ready, travel to work, work, travel home from work, eat dinner, watch tv for an hour, go to sleep. It was a very long boring day that left me with no time for myself. After 2.5 years of this I was burned out. When I first started, I was even going to the gym after work, grabbing an on-the-go post workout protein snack, getting home at midnight, and basically going right to sleep, only to wake up by 6 am. Needless to say that didn’t last long. This time around with all my education and experience I feel entitled to be a little picky about what position I take. I plan on taking on a position that allows me to have the time to write and workout.
Speaking of writing, part of my decision to take on part-time hours has been because I’m starting to take my writing seriously again. I used to be so on/off with my writing because I couldn’t focus and didn’t believe I could ever actually finish a book. But I love writing, it’s a career path that once I’m successful would give me all the things I want out of life. It may take me longer than most professional writers to finish this book but I’ve changed my thinking, I believe in myself. I started a brand new blog to promote my erotic fiction, while also working on my first best selling novel. The link to my new blog is www.crazysexylovestories.wordpress.com . Like I said it’s erotic fiction, meaning it’s very sexy, very explicit and you’ll see that the moment the pages loads so only click on the link if you know you’ll be okay with that. Don’t get me wrong though, it’s not porn that you read, it’s fiction with sexy details, there’s a real plot and real character development. I appreciate anyone that does check it out, but I know it’s not for everyone.
As for where I’m at with my weight loss, I’m still at it and not doing too bad. Towards the end of July for about a week, I tried out a low to moderate carb diet. I didn’t go extreme with it like a lot of low carb diets require, which ends up being 20-25 grams of carbs per day. My goal for that week was not to go above 100 grams of carbs and even that was not easy. I gave myself some leeway so even if I went over, as long as I stayed under 150, I was still okay. It wasn’t easy to maintain and I admit, it was an attempt to reach my diet bet goals. I was able to drop 5 lbs that week, which was 2 lbs shy of my diet bet goal. But rather than getting depressed about losing yet again, I celebrated an awesome 5 lb loss which I’ve kept off even though I’m eating regularly again.
My August goals will be just to keep going. I’m currently at 266 lbs (35 lbs down.. woohoo) and my original goal for August was to get down to 250. I think I can do it but I know it’ll be tough, so I’m just gonna push myself to workout regularly and do my best. My diet bet goal for this month is 261 (5 lbs) so I know I will be wining this month. But my major goal for this month is to make sure I am working out regularly because excuses and laziness come very easily to me, so I have to constantly remind myself and push myself. All in all I am expecting August to be my best month of 2016 in all aspects of my life.
Choosing Health & Happiness 